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My Cancer Story

I was diagnosed with cancer in July 2019. I was diagnosed with incurable, terminal, metastatic lungcancer.

Few months before diagnosis I was constantly sick: cough, flu-like symptoms, my back ached, I felt weak and had issues with my stomach. I went to a gastrologist, but nothing serious was found, only a gastritis. After working at a music festival(it was House of The Holy, in case you are interested) I have experienced problems with breathing and had a breakdown. My doctor has sent me immediately to a lung doc, he diagnosed me first with COPD and made some x-rays. Something was there in my left lung, but it didn’t look like a tumor to him. He then ordered a CT scan 1 week later. I decided to enjoy the weekend and went to another festival(this time Chaos Descends), but I have felt that something was horribly wrong with me.

A CT Scan few days later revealed it was cancer – but the doctors didn’t tell me how serious it was. No one told me first, but I could see how worried everyone was. You must know, my dad is a doctor and works in the same hospital. The way he looked at me – I knew it was bad, really bad. After being hospitalized for 3 days my final diagnosis was: incurable, terminal cancer stage IVB. Cancer has spread through my whole body: lungs, lymph nodes, one metastasis in brain, metastasis in one kidney and countless metastasis in my bones. Till today I don’t know HOW many there were. In my case, most of the cancer went into my bones.

So here I was. 45 Years old with only few months left to live. You know, they didn’t tell how much time I have left. But of course, I have googled and, I’m telling you, it didn’t look good. Like 3-6 months or so.

I then had a long talk with the Universe/Great Spirit/ God/Quantum field (insert here what suits you, you know what I’m talking about) and realized I have got a message. It asked me “do you really want to live, because you don’t act like you do”. You must know, I have a long history of serious drug addiction, but that’s another survival story you will read one day… I was a real party girl, very self-destructive.

I wanted to live (and I still do) so asked for help and prayed for live, with my whole heart.  And the Universe answered…  Two weeks after my diagnosis we have received a good message, there was a genetic mutation on my cancer (called ALK+) and there was a good treatment in form of pills. I was then put on targeted therapy called Alectinib. In first moment, this means nothing or everything for you. Nothing, because these ridiculous expensive therapies only work in a small number of patients and there is no guarantee they will. Everything, because if they work they are absolutely life saving. I don’t think I would have survived a conventional chemo therapy at this point. I was too weak and the toxic load on my body was too immense.

I had another long, deep talk with the Quantum field, and well… 6 weeks later, in August 2019 scans revealed the metastasis in my brain was getting smaller, I had a response to this therapy.

My next CT scan in January 2020 revealed that I had a fantastic response to the treatment and everthing else I was doing. 90% of the tumor in my lung was gone, other metastasis were dissolved. I have got and still get treatment for my bone metastasis which remain calcified and stable and are not active.

It never occurred to me to give up or to think I will be dead soon.

I don’t live like I’m dying. I live like I’m alive.

If I had one wish, it would be for everyone to experience what I have. Not the cancer, but the power of love and the desire to live life to the fullest. If I hadn’t been diagnosed with cancer, I would never have experienced and felt the love, support, and friendship that has been given to me from so many people.

Love and light,

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  1. Such a beautiful story of a beautiful soul! Thank you for sharing your journey with us. Much love to you!

    • Maggie, thank you so much for your comment. You are one of my greatest inspirations, I love you blog and everything else you are doing! Wishing you all the best!

  2. Valentina T Valentina T

    That’s an amazing story! I am going through breast cancer at this moment and I have learnt a lot that I would like to share with the world! I have come across GNM – German New Medicine and that made me understand cancer and understand why some people heal while others don’t!
    Here are some websites if you would like to get to know GNM but I am more than happy to connect and give you more details on it!

    • Thank you for your comment Valentina, GNM sounds very interesting to me. I will definitelylook more into it!

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